Day 86
Today was okay. Not because of being home all day but because of the limitation it brings. Not being able to get out and do what needs to be done was really brought home today. My children needed me. Financial business needed me. I have to do it from here. I was able to get alot done by phone. Push comes to shove, I have wonderful friends and family who will help me. But I really felt the limitations of my confinement.
Working out helps so much. I am determined to do it daily.
Found some old books. Like the bio of Phil Donohue haha. Being home has given me time to really focus on forgotten projects and organization. I finally painted the last closet door in my room. I recreated curtains in the bathroom. I also found a couple of my favorite dresses from years ago I had packed away.
Working on my goals. Focused on the prize. One day at a time.
Monday, March 15, 2010
Sunday, March 14, 2010
87
Day 87
5:59pm
It was a beautiful day. The sunshine, watching nature lol. I had a surprise visit from family today and that is always special. The blueberry muffins turned out perfect even without a muffin pan. Running low on eggs haha. Four eggs will have to last me until Tuesday or Wednesday.
Today is a good day.
About to tackle a couple of cabinets full of old papers and clear them out. A movie marathon tonight of Toy Story 1 & 2 sounds like a possibility.
5:59pm
It was a beautiful day. The sunshine, watching nature lol. I had a surprise visit from family today and that is always special. The blueberry muffins turned out perfect even without a muffin pan. Running low on eggs haha. Four eggs will have to last me until Tuesday or Wednesday.
Today is a good day.
About to tackle a couple of cabinets full of old papers and clear them out. A movie marathon tonight of Toy Story 1 & 2 sounds like a possibility.
Saturday, March 13, 2010
88
Day 88
1:56pm
In four minutes I can leave and go to the store whoo hooo. I am not being sarcastic. I get an hour of freedom to buy that milk and stroll the store. I am happy and by the time 90 days are over I will be a timely person lol. I am leaving straight at two and will be back on time if not five minutes early.
7:19pm
I have been a couch potato most of the day. I enjoyed the beautiful sunshine during my trip to the store. I did get up and clean the kitchen which I had completely trashed lol. The baking mood is rising. I am going to make blueberry crumb topping muffins for breakfast tomorrow. I figure I can save the rest.
I have to say with all technology you would think this ankle bracelet would be let bulky. I am figuring the discomfort is part of the process. I have had to move it to the inner ankle for the outer part is tender to the touch from it rubbing against it.
Day three, I will do this I will do this. I am free.
1:56pm
In four minutes I can leave and go to the store whoo hooo. I am not being sarcastic. I get an hour of freedom to buy that milk and stroll the store. I am happy and by the time 90 days are over I will be a timely person lol. I am leaving straight at two and will be back on time if not five minutes early.
7:19pm
I have been a couch potato most of the day. I enjoyed the beautiful sunshine during my trip to the store. I did get up and clean the kitchen which I had completely trashed lol. The baking mood is rising. I am going to make blueberry crumb topping muffins for breakfast tomorrow. I figure I can save the rest.
I have to say with all technology you would think this ankle bracelet would be let bulky. I am figuring the discomfort is part of the process. I have had to move it to the inner ankle for the outer part is tender to the touch from it rubbing against it.
Day three, I will do this I will do this. I am free.
Friday, March 12, 2010
89
Day 89
7am
Yesterday went by fine. It is amazing to what we can adjust to. The sheriff came by to inspect my home. They are not playing about the rules. She was very nice though and gave me some tips on how to deal with things. I am grateful that the bracelet did not wake me up in my sleep. I am a light sleeper and having that bulky contraption around my ankle while I twist and turn in the bed...I am glad I slept with no problems.
As I prepare breakfast, I thought THOUGHT I shopped ahead for my frig is stocked. But here it is only day two and I am almost out of milk hahaha. I can only laugh at the irony of it. Cereal must have been a popular snack these last few days.
7:40pm
Long day. I actually had moments that I forgot it was on. Then it was so annoying and irritating. I have to be on time. Sheesh for me that is not an easy task. But every minute counts here. My curfew tonight was 6:30. Drove from San Rafael, to Point Richmond to courier a package and then to Dville in the rain during Friday commute. I was three blocks from the house and it was 6:29pm. Rather be safe than sorry so I called in.
My boss called it babysitting. Must know all locations. Cant leave. Cant go outside. Can depart at this time. Must be home by that time. Very regimented. Adjust adjust adjust.
Was able to make an appointment to go to the store tomorrow. Pick up the milk. Day two is ending and gonna pray for the ability to be on time. I have to.
7am
Yesterday went by fine. It is amazing to what we can adjust to. The sheriff came by to inspect my home. They are not playing about the rules. She was very nice though and gave me some tips on how to deal with things. I am grateful that the bracelet did not wake me up in my sleep. I am a light sleeper and having that bulky contraption around my ankle while I twist and turn in the bed...I am glad I slept with no problems.
As I prepare breakfast, I thought THOUGHT I shopped ahead for my frig is stocked. But here it is only day two and I am almost out of milk hahaha. I can only laugh at the irony of it. Cereal must have been a popular snack these last few days.
7:40pm
Long day. I actually had moments that I forgot it was on. Then it was so annoying and irritating. I have to be on time. Sheesh for me that is not an easy task. But every minute counts here. My curfew tonight was 6:30. Drove from San Rafael, to Point Richmond to courier a package and then to Dville in the rain during Friday commute. I was three blocks from the house and it was 6:29pm. Rather be safe than sorry so I called in.
My boss called it babysitting. Must know all locations. Cant leave. Cant go outside. Can depart at this time. Must be home by that time. Very regimented. Adjust adjust adjust.
Was able to make an appointment to go to the store tomorrow. Pick up the milk. Day two is ending and gonna pray for the ability to be on time. I have to.
Thursday, March 11, 2010
90
Day 90
It is official. My time has begun. Good news, day zero for me is 6/7. Woooo Hooo I will not be on lock down for my birthday. Huge party, huge celebration, HUGE let me say it again H-U-G-E. After the first week, I will be able to attend church. I am grateful for that. The sad news is I have to stay within the four walls of my home. Any garden work will have to be scheduled. I can live with that.
So it is on. My hibernation has become and when this is over I will emerge stronger and completely free. My goals are in place and my schedule is set.
Day 90 has begun...
It is official. My time has begun. Good news, day zero for me is 6/7. Woooo Hooo I will not be on lock down for my birthday. Huge party, huge celebration, HUGE let me say it again H-U-G-E. After the first week, I will be able to attend church. I am grateful for that. The sad news is I have to stay within the four walls of my home. Any garden work will have to be scheduled. I can live with that.
So it is on. My hibernation has become and when this is over I will emerge stronger and completely free. My goals are in place and my schedule is set.
Day 90 has begun...
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Tis the night before...
It is the night before and I finally made it to the grocery store. Papers all organized. Money on hand, Thank You God. No butterflies, no fear just ready. I am ready to start so I can finish.
I have set goals for the next three months. I have created a daily guideline of things I must do every day.
I am ready. I am set. I am going on "vacation". It is at a great location. I will do this with a smile on my face, spring in my step, and my eyes above.
I have set goals for the next three months. I have created a daily guideline of things I must do every day.
I am ready. I am set. I am going on "vacation". It is at a great location. I will do this with a smile on my face, spring in my step, and my eyes above.
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Preparation
Today is March 7, 2010. My heart is full. The count down begins before day 90. So much to do, not enough time. First and foremost is seeing the ones I love the most. I have seen three out of the four. Got to make it work to see her this week. Planning, having everything planned...this will challenge me the most. I am like a butterfly that flit here and there. I may stay in for days, and then stay away for weeks. I live spontaneously, in the moment. What I planned for dinner could be changed in a sec and off to the store. I am not a planner. This time forces me to land and plan. Being grounded and sticking to what is planned will be the most challenging.
Creating lists help organize my mind. My mind spins a million times a minute and then starts all over again. Lists help me focus:
1)Schedule: I have to create a schedule, force consistency to adhere to the flow.
2)Menus: I have to create menu, on a budget, but one I stick to and grocery shop for.
3)Exercise: I dont want to become a couch potato. It is not cute.
4)TAG: Time Alone w God, the most important. For it is He who is my anchor during this storm I have been tossed in. His smile, His generosity is all that has helped me make it to this point. He has placed the right people in my life, wonderful family and with tears streaming down my face I can say, I am not afraid. I have no fear. I would not have been able to say that a year ago. I will face this and all challenges head on, procrastination and avoidance a thing of the past.
The rules:
1)Required to stay within the four walls of my residence except during work hours, or prior authorization.
2)Zero tolerance for alcohol, illegal drugs and weapons this includes Nyquil.
3)Weekly office visits
I will learn more on March 11.
I have been focusing on this one scripture. It came to me and then I just opened my bible straight to it. This one scripture gives me great comfort, peace.
Philippians 4:4-9 (New International Version)
Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.
I have, in brief moments, experienced this peace that transcends all understanding. It is like being in the middle, in the eye of a tornado. You see the storm whirling around you yet you remain still, in peace. My life went from being a stepford wife to a tornado, everything whirling around yet for brief moments He blesses me with peace that transcended all understanding. I pray for longer moments.
My heart is full.
Creating lists help organize my mind. My mind spins a million times a minute and then starts all over again. Lists help me focus:
1)Schedule: I have to create a schedule, force consistency to adhere to the flow.
2)Menus: I have to create menu, on a budget, but one I stick to and grocery shop for.
3)Exercise: I dont want to become a couch potato. It is not cute.
4)TAG: Time Alone w God, the most important. For it is He who is my anchor during this storm I have been tossed in. His smile, His generosity is all that has helped me make it to this point. He has placed the right people in my life, wonderful family and with tears streaming down my face I can say, I am not afraid. I have no fear. I would not have been able to say that a year ago. I will face this and all challenges head on, procrastination and avoidance a thing of the past.
The rules:
1)Required to stay within the four walls of my residence except during work hours, or prior authorization.
2)Zero tolerance for alcohol, illegal drugs and weapons this includes Nyquil.
3)Weekly office visits
I will learn more on March 11.
I have been focusing on this one scripture. It came to me and then I just opened my bible straight to it. This one scripture gives me great comfort, peace.
Philippians 4:4-9 (New International Version)
Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.
I have, in brief moments, experienced this peace that transcends all understanding. It is like being in the middle, in the eye of a tornado. You see the storm whirling around you yet you remain still, in peace. My life went from being a stepford wife to a tornado, everything whirling around yet for brief moments He blesses me with peace that transcended all understanding. I pray for longer moments.
My heart is full.
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